I think I am getting too comfortable staying here. Everyday I try to convince myself that leaving is not going to be hard. There are times I am thankful that I won't be here forever but when I think of the team that I have (yes I am arbitarily proclaiming that the team is mine hehe), I dread the idea of leaving. A friend said that I adapt too easily to new enviroment maybe that is the reason for me dreading to leave this place as things alien to me when I first arrived here has started to be something familiar and normal to me (except the fact that I don't have my car here this I can never get used to).
Now I have friends which I can rely on for company and learned to trust. So leaving them behind might not be so easy for me. The thought that they might be doing fun stuff without me is so unbearable. I blame my ADD for this feeling. I always want to be on the spot light and apart of the seemingly 'cool' activities.
Well go home I will so the only thing to do now is to plan on how my departure would be. Smiling gracefully while waving like the winner of Miss Universe or shed tears while trying to laugh it off at the same time. Both options don't seem too appealing at this moment. I still have around 5 more weeks to plan so just wait for my update haha
Good night peeps.
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