Forgetting

Wouldn't it be easier if we can be selective in what we want to remember and what not? If this is really that good perhaps people suffering with selective memory disorder can be consider as lucky. Not having to remember or think about what hurts them the most and only remembering all the good times. It is like forever being induced with chocolate drip into your system. Always 'high' with the happy hormones. No heart crushing pain of being left, ignored or just plain regret of past mistakes.

But....

It is the pain of past memories that will teach us the need to cherish future happy moments knowing that the pain brought by past memories might not be easily bearable. It is bearable but not easily as God will only test its subject within its capability and never beyond it. The joy of not having bad memories vs the joy of having good memories after having experienced past painful moments...arghh...it is a dilemma that one can only hope to be able to go through without doing anything which is self destructive.

I guess the only way to handle this is to acknowledge whatever painful moments that we had gone through as a lesson for the future. Painful it may be to be endured but to try to forget will only be a lot more excruciating as our mind is trained to make something that we want to forget a lot more vivid compared to when we try to just move on without trying to forget. It is like pressing the delete button when you want to delete any file on the computer, there will always be a pop up box asking whether you are sure about deleting the file. After reading the message we will eventually do a mental check of content of the file.

Be strong, be brave, have faith in Him and you'll be able to go through anything...