something stupid...

have u ever done something stupid just to satisfy yourself and end up feeling happy but laced with guilt of a defeated man? i for sure have done it and so do countless other people out there. for example, you decide not to do something but ended up doing it in the end after much excuses have been uttered and made up so that you feel as if you were pushed to the corner and doing something that you have decided not to do earlier seems inevitable. how fragile and vurnerable we are to the game of the heart and mind *sigh*....for today at least i decided not to dwell too much in guilt but to cherish the feeling of satisfaction that i felt after overturning my initial decision haha....some people might say this attitude as enjoying the moment while it last and the chance to do it is still there....

ps....am i making any sense in this post?

intoxicated by sugar

A few days ago after I blew up while intoxicated with sugar overdose plus a good ADD counselling session, I decided to be positive about my new 'adventure' in the corporate jungle. Friends are what I hope to make, foe might be unavoidable but will try to minimise their share of my life. Everything seems to work my way untill suddenly news on an impending departure of a mentor really shock my determination. It got me thinking and I now no that I can no longer rely on my old comfort zone as a cushion for me to fall back to. News of his departure made me realize that nothing will remains the same for change is the only constant (heard this quote a few weeks ago hehe). I have made my decision (as unnecessarily pointed out by someone I do not expect to slap me with something that I have already known) and will definitely give this opportunity a try. It will be difficult but I'll endure it.

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ps...big bro sorry bout the other day i'll blame it on the sugar hehe what i accused u of holds no truth at all,. it was just my dissapointment with ur respond talking....thanks for everything that u have done...

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(Let's celebrate this my dear squid queen for the serunding sushi now is more matured)

jogging plan

no jogging for today coz it was raining...so going to eat with frens instead hehe
makan lagi....

steamboat bbq

Had loads of bbq'ued meat, chicken and prawns...dont really like the steamboat. It was fun at last I got to hang out with two (plus one coz one of us is married hehe) of my bestest 'cari2 makan' frens. Our last outing was like months ago. We have to do this again ya... Today wasn't my bestest day luckily there was plenty of food to help me go through it hehe...

mental note: tomorrow have to jog faster a bit (hopefully after the jog someone could treat me to starbuck's espresso with cream frappucino)

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good company

good company is hard to get but sometimes you do get lucky hehe....
interesting conversation topic + interactive two way communication
= remedy for a stressful day

THANK YOU!!!!!

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certainty : the sequal

Nothing is certain in life. Duh...everybody knows this but at times we pretend that we are certain every single time when we say 'OK I have made up my mind!'. At first you might be sure of what you want but after five minutes (sometimes immediately after you have finished saying that you have made up your mind) you will start thinking what if i choose the other way, menu, decision etc...

Dear Squid Queen,
I wish I could say that I like where I am today (sincerely at times I do like it) but being normal human being I can't help being pessimistic or lalang like...So what I do is to convince myself on a daily basis that as long as where I am today does not result to me being checked in to any mental institution, I shall go through any obstacle that may come my way.
Sometimes sharing your life detail with people that you care does helps a lot, be it while walking to the LRT station, in a car being driven to LRT station or in a restaurant after a good meal (Note: If you are in a restaurant do take note of its closing time to avoid embarrassing subtle halau-ing session by the staff hehe). Another thing is please share with the right people you do not want them going around talking bad bout you or worst telling people that you are so vain to the extent that every conversation is about your life. In short get a willing partner in crime normally in the form of people who truly cares bout you be it openly or in secret (hmm if it is in secret how would you know? well we can always try and error method =P )
Unfortunately, at times it can be really hard to the extent that even after a good ADD therapy session I would still feel sad but there is always another way out that is to beg, cry or even rant to HIM. Knowing that He will do something to help is soothing enough for me (well at least doing this helps me to sleep every night) the only downside is WHEN *typical ungrateful human trait in action*.

I think I better get to my ranting session with Him before I go to sleep....chow....