Living in the moment

We tend to look to the future and neglect the current reality. Well maybe not everyone but i for sure does it. At times i dwell too much on the consequences of the action that i am plannning to act on to the extend that i get freaked out by the various negatives outcome of the actions. Some might say what i have done as being in the spirit of being coutious and mindful but when we look at this sutuation based on an engineering principles, i have travelled no where as i am still at the starting point. Philosophy wise i have made a journey of self discovery as thinking or reflecting on our actions is a virtue which is evident in a quote below:

Nothing pains some people more than having to think.
Martin Luther King Jr. (1929-1968) American black leader.

I think in life we do have to take some time to think but it should not deter us from trying new stuff. For example i have this problem with heights but when i was travelling in SA back in 2010 i did try to abseil down the table mountain. Before doing it, i did a lot of thinking but once i swiped my credit card there was no turning back. I did it n enjoyed it but to do it again i doubt it haha

Another good example would be my dearest friend Mega, she decided to leave her highly prestigious title as the squid queen to live among the Krabbian n educate their young ones (Note: this fictional like character was created to hide the identity of my fren). This was done for she believes that she needed to make a change. If u dont do it who else will. That was her motivation. Well i am not saying that we should leave our day job n start doing whatever that the heart desires. We have our resposibilities so be moderate n wuteva that u decide to do after reading this. Maybe u can start with the dream of eradicating poverty for example by volunteering with NGO such as Kechara Soup Kitchen. Or you can tell outright to that special person how much u aporeciates his/her presence in your life and not just thinking of ways to express it.

Bottomline is living in the moment. Dont wait untill tomorrow for you to do something positive. Do take time to think of the consequences of your doings but do not fall into the trap of fear. Fear will save you but it too can kill you by making you regret of the 'what ifs' and 'i should have done it' moments when looking back to your life. Let's us all try to seize the day and live in the moment...on another note, to those of you who have been there through all my rants and ramblings, do know that i love you all 😘 

A tarnished dream

At first i wanted to right about ego and forgiveness but decided to not dwell in that now n write about a dream i dreamed four years plus ago. When i started working i made a promise to myself that i will be the most helpful helpdesk. No is the answer for those of you whom might think "Helpdesk? He will definately be bullied into finishing the 'unwanted' jobs". My dream was to be an ever willing colleague to share knowledge. When i was a junior cook i know how difficult it was to approach a senior who always seems to be busy. For me approaching them was like putting my hear on the chopping block. Putting my dear life at the mercy of the executioner. I remember sending a dish to the masterchef after making sure that i have followed the recipe given. Upon serving the dish my master straightaway commented bout the flaws in my dish presentation. There goes hours of effort destroyed in mere seconds. No doubt after the experience i learned faster n tend to be more careful in completing a task. From that moment on, i decided to be an approachable and helpful senior to my juniors but not to the extend of spoon feeding them. A simple dream that was tarnished today. Today was the day that i blew my top off. Well i didnt really start a frantic word attack on my junior but i did raise my voice n i believe it was obvious from my facial expression n tone of voice that i was annoyed. After the incident, i felt really bad towards my junior. I was angry with myself for actually allowing myself to succumb to the frustration deep within me due to the situation i was in. How can i be so frail that i cant control my anger. I vented out my frustration to the wrong people. Seeing a dream kept for the past four years plus got tarnished really effects me. I made another promise today that i will try my very best to make up for the mistake that i have done.  ~a dreamer who dreams of a better reality~